Damn, its been a long time since i posted here. Nothing much going on in my life atm, only think new is that i e-mailed SEAB to appeal for the GCE O level exams. Hope i can take it this year as a private candidate. I really need to socialise more. Thats what i think really. O well, watching a soccer match tonight. Yea, its a big one, liverpool vs chelsea. Cant think of anything now.. so the end

Whao... how time flies, the last post i blogged about was a few days before CNY and its been so long. So many things have gone by. Well, i have nothing to do atm and i cant sleep as i slept in the afternoon after playing basketball in the morning. And well, some stuffs are in my head.

Recently, i have been thinking of the past. My schooling days. Like sister said to me, how she missed being an ignorant teen. Its so true. Miss having a chat with her sometimes. So busy with JC life till hardly got time to spent with my good bro. Well, wish her all the best.

Life for me has been ok, quit my job at long beach as the area was getting real small and they did not need much people already, so atm i am looking for a new job, hopefully something in the sales area. Would like a change in environment. Hopefully can find one soon as i want to get a PS3 by june. And refurnish my room as its super messy atm.

Valentines day...

Well, today is Valentines day and i spent it working. Met hao for dinner beore we went to work. Well, walking around places, seeing couples going around shopping, meeting up for dinner, all these reminds me of the past. And i suddenly remembered the stuff in my cupboard. Hao said to me tat give it to her as a friend, but i knew it was not possible. Well, its kind a emotional barrier for me. I do not know how to talk or face her. I feel its all so weird. Even after these time, those moments still stay at the back of my head. It started happily, the journey was great. But sadly, it ended in a crash.

The previous Valentines day was not a day i wished to remember, and this years Valentines day is not one i would like to remember too. Hope the next Valentines day will be a good one and hoprfully spent with my valentine. Time will tell. Untill then, i'll just wonder around waiting for the time to come.

Been a long time since i blogged.. CNY is coming soon. 3 more days. The time for relative visiting has finally come. Looking forward to visit mama again and the rest of the Lai family, Dai Po and Dai Gong. Long time since i seen them, wonder how are they. I realised that i kinda miss seeing them during new year even thou i do not know how i am related to them. Maybe its cause i am used to it. Hope this year i'll be able to see them and also spend time with my mama. Really miss her lots. Gonna show her some magic tricks i learned, shes getting old. Hope it could bring laughters to her life. And to my little cousins i have there, maybe can show em a trick or too while i am at it. Esp those who are closer to me, Pei Ying, Jia Jia, Val and Jeremy. And that cute little cousin of mine, Keat Zai. Looking forward to seeing u all during CNY.

Boring Day For Me..

Today is a boring day for me.. at around 3 i went to play basketball with hao and bonson. Well it was just a short session and they both left to meat thier stead. Went home and did nothing for the whole day.. seems like everyone is busy doing thier own stuffs. O well, thinking of looking for a 2nd job as i am very free.

Just ate the dory fish which was left over from the bbq yesterday. Now i understand why the water we had finished so quickly.. the chilli was one of the spicest i have ever eaten.. started perspiering immidiately i swallowed the 2nd piece haha. Well thats about the only thing that happened today worth mentioning. Nothing else happen. Maybe i should go jog later. I'll just see my mood.

Had my class BBQ today, well can say it was a successful one. Other then the part where the seafood shop was closed one that day and we had to buy our seafood from gaint. Song, Hao and Fei cycled all the way to Giant just to get the seafood. Haha, well most of the people turned up. Had an unexpected guest today, Jac, Ken's the Girlfriend. But o well guess we all know each other its alright. It was great to be able to meet up with them as a class again, the atmosphere was great. Catching up, crapping about. Playing Black Jack. All the cold jokes, and the clumsiness of the few people spilling drinks and dropping food on each other, although it should be something to be angry at but somehow it just becomes a laughing matter. Well thanks for those who turned up and hope u all had a great time. I'll try to organise these small events frequently so we'll always keep in contact ya?

Well somethings happened today that made me thought about the past, after the bbq when everyone left and i am left alone in my room. I thought of some old friends. Well, how can some people change so much that even those closest to them now feel they are total strangers. Guess that's life, you lose some, you gain some.

Was thinking of something which Pastor Doug spoke about during the BBQ. We had so much food on our tables that were not cooked. So a phrase he said struck my mind.

We do not live on food but by the word of god.

What does this phrase means? Is it telling us that although food is the item that's giving us the energy to carrying out our daily activities, it is not the one that will let us carry out our spiritual activities?? That the word of god is the only thing that can give us energy for our spiritual self? I really agree with what Senior Pastor Khong said quite long ago.

We are all smart beyond our own good.

We start to think for ourself and make decisions on our own instead of listening to God's word. We start to doubt and then start to make choices that selfishly benefit us. Well thats what i was wondering while i am staying at the 4 blanks walls of my room. Thinking of refurnishing my room and removing some cupboards and adding some things to my plain walls. Well, i'll have to wait till after CNY before doing all thses.

A Strange Coincidence

Just got back from work and found out i left my computer on for the whole day. Lolz. Today at work was a very strange day. I met two people whom i knew. Lolz. One was Sharon Sin de father, and another was my senior, Cui Jing whom i met a NYP de open house(as i was half awake that day i maybe wrong. haha =P) Well shes still very friendly. Haha Surprised she knew who i was, honored haha and three of my colleges said u were pretty lolz. But i doubt she knows my name. Lolz. Anyways, tomorrow will be a busy day for me. Going to holland V de NYDC for King Kong's farewell party. Shes heading to holland for and exchange programme. No idea what that is. Anyways, wish her all the best and hope to hear from her soon. And my BBQ is finally coming. Its on this monday, so hopefully the weather will be good for us and everyone will like the food. Sadly not everyone i invited could come. But i guess its alright. Well getting kinda hungry now as Zheng hao stole half my bowl of porridge, and as it was porridge i would never get full no matter how much i ate. So i'll cook maggi mee for myself haha. Starting to work out now, doing push ups every now and then. Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day for me. O yea and i want to dye my hair! Lolz. Ash gray and a few highlights, hopefully it will look nice and not make me look like a beng. Lolz.

NYP Open House

Just got back form NYP open house. Lots of people there. Lolz. Went there with jessica since i got nothing to do also and i cant sleep. Lolz. Surprisingly i am more active then i was in the morning lolz. Something is really wrong with me haha. While walking round the campus we walked past the course which i had in mind during my Secondary School days. Well, made me thought of some stuffs. Well, slacking at home atm. Helping cheryl to set up her cell blog. And its taking a very long time. I just remembered that jessica had a pen which has purple ink! Haha. I want one of those. Gonna get it from her one day lolz. Well thats all for now.

Long time since last post.

Its been a long time since i posted. Dont know why but this few days i could not get to sleep at night. Sleeping at 4 or 5 am this few days. Today was the worse. For the whole night i could not get to sleep at all. Stayed awake for the whole night waiting for the time to pass till my baskbetball training. But sadly, i recieved a sms from zh that bb was canceled due to bad weather. Now i got nothing to do for the whole day.

Back from Sec 1 Orientation Camp.

Just got back from the Sec 1 orientation Camp. It was so chaotic that everything we planned was scrapped off and we had to reschedule everything again, Thanks to a certain someone. Well, it started off well but as usual. Sec1s were super quiet and shy.. but once they knew each other they went wild. I just feel that this orientation camp can never compare to the ones i went through as a Sec1 and as a peer leader.

First,
We did not have enough time to bond with the sec1s, we were just like strangers just crossing into their life. Unlike the previous time where there was such a great bonding between us and our group leaders and between us the peer leader or even the games masters with the group members. This time, we had no time to bond. We did not know anyone of them. What i find missing is that they should still keep the peer leader taking the sec1s for their first day on school, and for the orientation camps. So, they see the same faces and can connect with them better, and would also know the seniors in the school at the same time.

Secondly,
Without a peer leader camp, or a training camp for the facilitators. Everyone does not know how to do this cheer, and another cheer, and so on and so fourth. Everyone is not ready or prepared to take their groups and to lead 8 classes of Sec1s. Even if the teachers are there, they cant possibly be there 24/7 with them. There are times during breaks, during meals we have time with them. If we are not prepared we cant do things to our fullest.

Thirdly,
If teachers wants us to plan for them. Let us run the programme. Not that i do not like teachers or anything but having them change anything last minute makes it very hard to us to follow the time schedule allocated.

Well, really hope the next orientation camp or what ever camp i will join will be a good one. And time is really given to us to plan out everything single thing in detail.

Overall it was a fun orientation and a memory worth remembering. The other leaders i met. The achivement of teaching the sec1s their batch song in 2 days. Well, hopfully the next camp will be as succesful as this if not more succesful. Thank god for the people who came back to help and hope that you would bless them.

Here are some pics of the camps.(I'll try to get more)

The so called "Tsunami Victims"


Zheng Hao, Cheryl and Me(Lefi To Right)


US LEADERS!!!!!

Funny clips that brighten up our life.

Hey been a few days since i have blogged. Well i have put those stuff that are bothering me behind me now and moving on with my life. i found a really cute video just now and would like to share it with who ever comes here. Well as we all know babies are just adorable, well when they are young. And also laughter is contagious. Here's some video which combines both of them together. Hope u guys enjoy it as much as i do.

First post encounter lesson today, morning met fei and cheryl to pass fei his flowers, ended up we were late for our lessons. Met sharon at bukit merah while walking to magic box. Learned quite a lot of new things today.

During service, things happened. And i know i should not be bothered by these but somehow i cant control myself. My mood just get affected. Did not have the mood to do anything today. Just wanted to go somewhere quiet and be alone.

Well, nothing much to post today.. not in the mood..

Why do i feel so different from how we were last time...

Finally after a long week of waiting my bass guitar finally came! But sadly the strings got screwed up and i have to bring it to a shop and restring it all over again. That gives me more stuff to do on my already busy saturday. Gotta bring the guitar to the shop at penisula plaza in the late morning. After that gotta go back to red hill for my cell group, then gotta go back to IMM to get something. All the while carrying my heavy ass guitar aloing. Lolz. What a day!

Today was a ok day for me, played ball in the morning but it was a slow day. Haha went to IMM to see Diana from long beach, i think i'll be working there during this few weeks so to earn the extra cash lolz. Then slacked at home all day long waiting for my guitar haha.

Well here's a pic of my guitar,

and also a few days ago there was this very beautiful rainbow that appeared around my area.

First Post In 2007...

Its the year 2007 already, time past so fast. Went for my church the countdown party for the countdown. Glad to have ended 2006 with such nice memories. Thx to my 2 bros who came down and my brothers in my cell. 2006 was a year full of regrets, sadly things i have done have already been done. I'll be going for National Service i guess.

Would like to thank sharon, for bringing me to church and letting me know god.

To Stanley's, Shane's and Hui Min's the cell, glad to know you guys and girls and hope to have much more happy memories with you guys.

And to my Bros and Sis from 5/1 and my shatec class, hope u guys have a fruitful 2007.

To you Basketball Boys, hope we can meet up as often as possible for games and matches.

And to all my sistas, thx for being there when i feel down and cheering me up =)

I have been thinking about stuffs lately and there is something which i would like to share. Sometimes, do you feel as if you have been used? Only to be looked for only when someone is bored? Only when he or she has no one else to look for? And fogotten once everything is normal? Well, thats my own thinking some may think otherwise. 2006 has past and its time for a new start, a new beginning, a new year. Looking forward to 2007, wondering what is ahead of me. What i have to overcome. Hopefully i'll know alot more people, and my life wont be like how it used to be in 2006.

Well yesterday was Christmas and the sermon before Christmas was about love. The bible says love fosters confidence, but why is it that i feel nothing but fear. Spent the first 6 hours of Christmas with my church friends. Was a fun and memorable moment but in my mind, there was one person in my mind.

I do not dare to confess my feelings for tat person, the fear of rejection sicks down deep onto my heart. Afraid that if i do confess she'll stay a distance from me. I guess its just an emotional barrier that i have not gotten over and i myself know that i am not the kinda guy she likes.

Christmas was spent staying at home eating turkey and some other stuffs. This year is kinda a boring one for me. Everyone else was working, hao came over in the afternoon and spent the rest of the day watching slam dunk. Was so pumped up for the match against qiang tian today but alas our fears came true.. it rained.. well the match was postponed. I wonder when we'll be able to find a time for the match again where everyone is free. 2007 is just round the corner and i wonder what god has installed for me next year. Hope by then I'll be able to start my journey of the G12 vision, and our cell band will be successful. 2007, i got a feeling its gonna be a real difficult journey for me with ups and downs. Well, with god by my side i am sure i will be able to get true everything as i have faith in god and he will not let anyone who believes in him down.

Yst MoL was great! I felt the power of god's love everytime pastor khong preach that messege. How jesus died for us on the cross. Well gonna have another show tonight. Hope everything turns out well and we get better sits then we did last night. I had a very strange dream last night. Involving my sec class. Well we were on a bus ride home and everyone was dressed up and it was late at night so we were the only ones on the bus. i was sitting on the back row with shraon sin and mak, then in front of me was zc, and on the other end was sh. and in front of them was hz and wl. the funny thing was that on the tv in the bus it played something like thier prom night. The video was about the last day they were spending as students of commonwealth and times spent in school and all those stuffs. Watching the video i had a tear in my eye, and started to cry. And sh was crying too. Well, guess i just miss those times in secondary school with 5/1. Then here is the funny part. Sin leaned on mak and then mak leaned on me, they both fell asleep. And as usual i sit super low whenever i sit on the back row of the bus so ended up both thier body weight were on me and i could not get up. haha well then got woken up by a phone call. cant remember much of it anymore o well it was a wierd dream and jus wanted to post it here haha.

Finally got back from malaysia, got back like 4 hours ago, unpacked my stuffs and brought barnet's shirt to his out and went for supper. Feels great to be at home. haha. missed my com so much.
Well, the trip was a fun one and guess who i met at KL just an hour before i was leaving for SG. Joel! haha, he was there with his family. The trip back was horrible as there was a mistake from the staff at the hotel saying tat we gotta wait for the bus at another hotel and we only had 15 mins to get there. But the truth is tat its alright to wait for the bus at our own hotel as it would be coming here too, well we ended up running to and fro the hotels before we all got pissed off and settled down to wait for the bus. Well so much for our last day. Brought some stuffs back with me as well, a new pair of bb shoe, a baby milo sweater, 2 shirt and a levi jeans. haha. Could have brought 2 more shirts but the shop did not accept any card. haha did not have enough cash on hand, and did not have the time to change currency either. The bus was coming. It was a 5 hour ride back. The bus was great, watched a few movies in there. Personal tv screens as well haha. watched seven swords and elektra. And before i knew it i was back in singapore. haha. Well its 4 am in the mornin now and i think i had better get to sleep. I am not really tired actually. Well thats all for todae.

Now i am at my hotel's lobby using the net lolz, not much ppl online that i can chat with, i realised that i cant survive without a computer. haha life feels so wierd, todae is a sunday and i usually go for service. feels wierd not going to expo. Listening to some live band singing song lolz think the song name is ye lai xiang and the amazing thing is its a malay band! haha cool right. and its all very accurate lolz. Well feel sick due to the rain from the first day, got all drenched and got a flu and a sore throat. Hai... damn sick, took 4 hours getting from JB to KL by a car! goodness my legs went numb after the ride. then when i got to the hotel it got even worse. my nose got blocked haha. a funny thing jus happen, the malay singer is singing a cantonese song! bloody amazing! lolz. well i think i gotta stop here liaoz and get back to my hotel. still got a long day ahead, well cya guys when i get back to SG

1 more day till my encounter camp. Somehow i feel both excited and afraid. Wondering how it would turn out, wondering if i would have a personal encounter with god.
Today turned out alright. Watched tv for the whole afternoon. Funny thing is normally i have lots to blog once i start blogging but today, my mind is a blank.
Went to watch happy feet yst, with jess, song, mak and sin. Started the day by playing pool at WCRC in the afternoon with song and jess. Played for awhile and then went to wheelock place cause jess wanted to go do nydc for interview but too bad she cant work there cause thier looking for someone who can work for a minimum of 6 mths. While walking my crave for food hit me and i asked if they wanted to eat sakae sushi haha. Its been a while since i have eaten sakae, esp the buffet. Well we all ate till the food was up to our necks and we were basically forcing ourself to eat jus to clear the food on our table. haha. It was a rather funny situation, song was complaining about his hang over from drinking with his boss and his so called "suger mummy" haha that jess named for him. Well that another story so i'll continue with mine. And jess was complaining that when ever she goes out with us she'll gain 5 kg haha. Thats the price to pay when u come out with us lolz cause we will entertain you. After eating we decided to head to paragon and look for sin. Kept making fun of jess cause paragon is a so called "rich's man place." Me and song did not even know which shop was where but jess walked around like it was her backyard haha. Well found out later tat sin was working at the bra section of metro and we walked over to look for her. To cut a long story short we met her after her work and went to take a bus over to plaza sing to meet up with sharon and watch happy feet. Song was so blur tat when sharon came up from the escalator he did not see her and was leaning against the rail trying to spot her. haha. Brought tics for 6:30 show and it was the 5th row from the front. My neck was hurting after the movie but it was worth it haha. The movie is damn cute esp those baby penguins. haha. So fat and chubby. I jus love the way they talk and walk. There was one rapping penguin haha and there was a group of 5 pengiuns which were so hyper haha. They are all jus so cute. Well after that we went for a short game of pool again and we all headed back to take the MRT. Me, song and jess went to to take the train home while both sharon went to mac to wait for zkent. In the train we were pack like sardine for one stop. Thank goodness its only one stop haha. The rest of the train rides were alright as we got to sit down for a while. Jess got scolded by her mum for going home late, so much for the good girl image lolz. Speaking of mums, my mum is so strange lately. She has been smsing me asking where i am and what time i am coming back as early as 10. and its getting real irritating. Even though i said i am coming home now she'll ask again where am i and when i am coming back. Its not as if i was in pri school or something. Well, i guess the post is rather long now so i'll stop here. Gotta prepare my stuff for the camp tml.

Last night was my ex class the prom night, wished i was there with them man. They made it sound so fun. Well met up with cheng, song, fei, mark, teo, joseph, zc, alina, jess, ken and wendy at lao pat sat. Ate and chit chat there. I am glad they had plans, was feeling so fustrated at home and did not wanna stay in my room. After eating we crapped around thinking aobut where to go. Ended up walking to esplanade where the merlion was and sat there till 6 in the mornin before cabbing home. While we were there, we talked about our childhood, all the shows we use to watch, tome and jerry, swat cats, teletubbies(yes we do watch it during our childhood), and the most common power rangers. haha. yea childhood was fun. everyone was so lartagic that night. guess its cause of the cooling atmosphere there that made everyone just wanna sit there and enjoy the breeze and think about the past few years. I went to sit on the steps near the merlion and i was only a few steps away from the river. Sitting there made me think of the past few years, how i got to know them till i left the school. Kinda regreted it actually. Wasted alot of my time in there. did not treasure the time i had in there too. My good buddies and sisters from the class. Dont think we would meet up that often anymore. Eventhough many in my class would say our class has lots of conflicts, well its true but i believe every single one of them that has been together from 2001 to 2006 will agree with this, all of us will be remembered in everyone's mind and heart. Those crappy times we spent during PE lessons in sec 1, the times when we ran up and down changing from our Uniform to our PE attire. To those times in adam khoo where we all kinda bonded as one. Those were the times. Well to everyone in 5/1, wish u guys good luck in the future. And remember, We'll always be the best team in commonwealth.