Woah, National Day is here again. Been years since i went to watch the fireworks. Haha, i guess the older you get the more you prefer to watch the fireworks in the comfort of the sofa at home haha. Somthing funny happened on thurs while i was at work man. This reservist asking me about my age and when i revealed that i was only 20 he was stunned, he said he thought i was 28. Lolz. WTF man do i look that old. Sad man.
Caught GI joe on friday, quite a nice show. Though the story line abit wtf, but its an action movie so cant expect much haha. It has over the top action, surperb CGI effects, and hot babes too. So whats there to complain haha.
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Sunday, August 02, 2009
It's been a year since I last blogged. So many things have changed but one thing has not changed. For three years I have not been able to put away my feelings of past relationship. I don't know what I have been holding on to or why have I been holding on. Maybe there are some regrets I have in the past. All these time i have been wondering where would we be if we had handled things differently in the past. Would my life be different? For the worse? Or for the better?
Whats done is done so I'll just treasure those times in the past. Glad your doing well now, i am happy that we managed to meet up a few days back. For a moment, it felt like the past. But somehow i knew it was different. Anyhow, glad it happened.
Have been serving NS for about 1 year and a half now. Actually its more then that but whats most important is that its almost over. On 12/12/09 i will finally be a free man and a new chapter of my life will begin. Well its been a good run. Going into a world govern by the military. Working in a environment that is a stranger to me. Where a slight mistake would cause a chain event to happen. Finally its almost over. And once its over i got to start thinking of what to do in my life again. Actually i should start doing that now. Thinking about my future. What kind of job will i be in. What kind of person i want to be. Till now i am still lost in what kinda future i want to have.
I wonder what it would be to have a dad at this time of my life. During the whole time my dad was in hospital, i was so sure that he would be ok. The day before the doctor told us that he had a fever and to be prepared, i had went to the hospital to visit him. He looked at us but was too weak to speak due to medication. He looked fine, who would have thought he would get a high fever that very night and be pronounced brain dead. I have always been thinking, if i had visited him more often, had spoke to him more while he was in hospital, would the outcome be different? If he was still here, what advices would he give? Ever since he passed away. I have always told myself to be strong as i had to look after my sis and did not want my family to worry about me. Only on the day of his death did i break down in front of my family. Only one person has seen me breakdown because of my dad's death. Its difficult keeping stuff hidden deep inside not letting people know. Even thou the family is doing fine, i can feel that its different, without my dad in this family. Its very different. How i wished i had someone who knew how i felt and had someone to share the burden with.
Sometime back Michael Jackson passed away. Affected the whole world. Everywhere i went i kept hearing his songs. I guess in everyone's heart, MJ songs have a special place. MJ songs reminds me of my family in the past, before my dad passed away. His songs were kinda like a bond we all shared. Songs of MJ would always be playing, weather it be in the car while traveling, or at home playing on the karaoke set. But ever since he passed away, live has been so quiet... too quiet... One particular song i kept hearing was "You are not alone". Not surprised that as its a very touching song.
The first verse of the song means alot to me. Kinda relates how i feel all this time. Both towards the death of my dad, and my past relationship
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
Whats done is done so I'll just treasure those times in the past. Glad your doing well now, i am happy that we managed to meet up a few days back. For a moment, it felt like the past. But somehow i knew it was different. Anyhow, glad it happened.
Have been serving NS for about 1 year and a half now. Actually its more then that but whats most important is that its almost over. On 12/12/09 i will finally be a free man and a new chapter of my life will begin. Well its been a good run. Going into a world govern by the military. Working in a environment that is a stranger to me. Where a slight mistake would cause a chain event to happen. Finally its almost over. And once its over i got to start thinking of what to do in my life again. Actually i should start doing that now. Thinking about my future. What kind of job will i be in. What kind of person i want to be. Till now i am still lost in what kinda future i want to have.
I wonder what it would be to have a dad at this time of my life. During the whole time my dad was in hospital, i was so sure that he would be ok. The day before the doctor told us that he had a fever and to be prepared, i had went to the hospital to visit him. He looked at us but was too weak to speak due to medication. He looked fine, who would have thought he would get a high fever that very night and be pronounced brain dead. I have always been thinking, if i had visited him more often, had spoke to him more while he was in hospital, would the outcome be different? If he was still here, what advices would he give? Ever since he passed away. I have always told myself to be strong as i had to look after my sis and did not want my family to worry about me. Only on the day of his death did i break down in front of my family. Only one person has seen me breakdown because of my dad's death. Its difficult keeping stuff hidden deep inside not letting people know. Even thou the family is doing fine, i can feel that its different, without my dad in this family. Its very different. How i wished i had someone who knew how i felt and had someone to share the burden with.
Sometime back Michael Jackson passed away. Affected the whole world. Everywhere i went i kept hearing his songs. I guess in everyone's heart, MJ songs have a special place. MJ songs reminds me of my family in the past, before my dad passed away. His songs were kinda like a bond we all shared. Songs of MJ would always be playing, weather it be in the car while traveling, or at home playing on the karaoke set. But ever since he passed away, live has been so quiet... too quiet... One particular song i kept hearing was "You are not alone". Not surprised that as its a very touching song.
The first verse of the song means alot to me. Kinda relates how i feel all this time. Both towards the death of my dad, and my past relationship
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
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