Well yesterday was Christmas and the sermon before Christmas was about love. The bible says love fosters confidence, but why is it that i feel nothing but fear. Spent the first 6 hours of Christmas with my church friends. Was a fun and memorable moment but in my mind, there was one person in my mind.

I do not dare to confess my feelings for tat person, the fear of rejection sicks down deep onto my heart. Afraid that if i do confess she'll stay a distance from me. I guess its just an emotional barrier that i have not gotten over and i myself know that i am not the kinda guy she likes.

Christmas was spent staying at home eating turkey and some other stuffs. This year is kinda a boring one for me. Everyone else was working, hao came over in the afternoon and spent the rest of the day watching slam dunk. Was so pumped up for the match against qiang tian today but alas our fears came true.. it rained.. well the match was postponed. I wonder when we'll be able to find a time for the match again where everyone is free. 2007 is just round the corner and i wonder what god has installed for me next year. Hope by then I'll be able to start my journey of the G12 vision, and our cell band will be successful. 2007, i got a feeling its gonna be a real difficult journey for me with ups and downs. Well, with god by my side i am sure i will be able to get true everything as i have faith in god and he will not let anyone who believes in him down.

Yst MoL was great! I felt the power of god's love everytime pastor khong preach that messege. How jesus died for us on the cross. Well gonna have another show tonight. Hope everything turns out well and we get better sits then we did last night. I had a very strange dream last night. Involving my sec class. Well we were on a bus ride home and everyone was dressed up and it was late at night so we were the only ones on the bus. i was sitting on the back row with shraon sin and mak, then in front of me was zc, and on the other end was sh. and in front of them was hz and wl. the funny thing was that on the tv in the bus it played something like thier prom night. The video was about the last day they were spending as students of commonwealth and times spent in school and all those stuffs. Watching the video i had a tear in my eye, and started to cry. And sh was crying too. Well, guess i just miss those times in secondary school with 5/1. Then here is the funny part. Sin leaned on mak and then mak leaned on me, they both fell asleep. And as usual i sit super low whenever i sit on the back row of the bus so ended up both thier body weight were on me and i could not get up. haha well then got woken up by a phone call. cant remember much of it anymore o well it was a wierd dream and jus wanted to post it here haha.

Finally got back from malaysia, got back like 4 hours ago, unpacked my stuffs and brought barnet's shirt to his out and went for supper. Feels great to be at home. haha. missed my com so much.
Well, the trip was a fun one and guess who i met at KL just an hour before i was leaving for SG. Joel! haha, he was there with his family. The trip back was horrible as there was a mistake from the staff at the hotel saying tat we gotta wait for the bus at another hotel and we only had 15 mins to get there. But the truth is tat its alright to wait for the bus at our own hotel as it would be coming here too, well we ended up running to and fro the hotels before we all got pissed off and settled down to wait for the bus. Well so much for our last day. Brought some stuffs back with me as well, a new pair of bb shoe, a baby milo sweater, 2 shirt and a levi jeans. haha. Could have brought 2 more shirts but the shop did not accept any card. haha did not have enough cash on hand, and did not have the time to change currency either. The bus was coming. It was a 5 hour ride back. The bus was great, watched a few movies in there. Personal tv screens as well haha. watched seven swords and elektra. And before i knew it i was back in singapore. haha. Well its 4 am in the mornin now and i think i had better get to sleep. I am not really tired actually. Well thats all for todae.

Now i am at my hotel's lobby using the net lolz, not much ppl online that i can chat with, i realised that i cant survive without a computer. haha life feels so wierd, todae is a sunday and i usually go for service. feels wierd not going to expo. Listening to some live band singing song lolz think the song name is ye lai xiang and the amazing thing is its a malay band! haha cool right. and its all very accurate lolz. Well feel sick due to the rain from the first day, got all drenched and got a flu and a sore throat. Hai... damn sick, took 4 hours getting from JB to KL by a car! goodness my legs went numb after the ride. then when i got to the hotel it got even worse. my nose got blocked haha. a funny thing jus happen, the malay singer is singing a cantonese song! bloody amazing! lolz. well i think i gotta stop here liaoz and get back to my hotel. still got a long day ahead, well cya guys when i get back to SG