Well yesterday was Christmas and the sermon before Christmas was about love. The bible says love fosters confidence, but why is it that i feel nothing but fear. Spent the first 6 hours of Christmas with my church friends. Was a fun and memorable moment but in my mind, there was one person in my mind.

I do not dare to confess my feelings for tat person, the fear of rejection sicks down deep onto my heart. Afraid that if i do confess she'll stay a distance from me. I guess its just an emotional barrier that i have not gotten over and i myself know that i am not the kinda guy she likes.

Christmas was spent staying at home eating turkey and some other stuffs. This year is kinda a boring one for me. Everyone else was working, hao came over in the afternoon and spent the rest of the day watching slam dunk. Was so pumped up for the match against qiang tian today but alas our fears came true.. it rained.. well the match was postponed. I wonder when we'll be able to find a time for the match again where everyone is free. 2007 is just round the corner and i wonder what god has installed for me next year. Hope by then I'll be able to start my journey of the G12 vision, and our cell band will be successful. 2007, i got a feeling its gonna be a real difficult journey for me with ups and downs. Well, with god by my side i am sure i will be able to get true everything as i have faith in god and he will not let anyone who believes in him down.

Yst MoL was great! I felt the power of god's love everytime pastor khong preach that messege. How jesus died for us on the cross. Well gonna have another show tonight. Hope everything turns out well and we get better sits then we did last night. I had a very strange dream last night. Involving my sec class. Well we were on a bus ride home and everyone was dressed up and it was late at night so we were the only ones on the bus. i was sitting on the back row with shraon sin and mak, then in front of me was zc, and on the other end was sh. and in front of them was hz and wl. the funny thing was that on the tv in the bus it played something like thier prom night. The video was about the last day they were spending as students of commonwealth and times spent in school and all those stuffs. Watching the video i had a tear in my eye, and started to cry. And sh was crying too. Well, guess i just miss those times in secondary school with 5/1. Then here is the funny part. Sin leaned on mak and then mak leaned on me, they both fell asleep. And as usual i sit super low whenever i sit on the back row of the bus so ended up both thier body weight were on me and i could not get up. haha well then got woken up by a phone call. cant remember much of it anymore o well it was a wierd dream and jus wanted to post it here haha.

Finally got back from malaysia, got back like 4 hours ago, unpacked my stuffs and brought barnet's shirt to his out and went for supper. Feels great to be at home. haha. missed my com so much.
Well, the trip was a fun one and guess who i met at KL just an hour before i was leaving for SG. Joel! haha, he was there with his family. The trip back was horrible as there was a mistake from the staff at the hotel saying tat we gotta wait for the bus at another hotel and we only had 15 mins to get there. But the truth is tat its alright to wait for the bus at our own hotel as it would be coming here too, well we ended up running to and fro the hotels before we all got pissed off and settled down to wait for the bus. Well so much for our last day. Brought some stuffs back with me as well, a new pair of bb shoe, a baby milo sweater, 2 shirt and a levi jeans. haha. Could have brought 2 more shirts but the shop did not accept any card. haha did not have enough cash on hand, and did not have the time to change currency either. The bus was coming. It was a 5 hour ride back. The bus was great, watched a few movies in there. Personal tv screens as well haha. watched seven swords and elektra. And before i knew it i was back in singapore. haha. Well its 4 am in the mornin now and i think i had better get to sleep. I am not really tired actually. Well thats all for todae.

Now i am at my hotel's lobby using the net lolz, not much ppl online that i can chat with, i realised that i cant survive without a computer. haha life feels so wierd, todae is a sunday and i usually go for service. feels wierd not going to expo. Listening to some live band singing song lolz think the song name is ye lai xiang and the amazing thing is its a malay band! haha cool right. and its all very accurate lolz. Well feel sick due to the rain from the first day, got all drenched and got a flu and a sore throat. Hai... damn sick, took 4 hours getting from JB to KL by a car! goodness my legs went numb after the ride. then when i got to the hotel it got even worse. my nose got blocked haha. a funny thing jus happen, the malay singer is singing a cantonese song! bloody amazing! lolz. well i think i gotta stop here liaoz and get back to my hotel. still got a long day ahead, well cya guys when i get back to SG

1 more day till my encounter camp. Somehow i feel both excited and afraid. Wondering how it would turn out, wondering if i would have a personal encounter with god.
Today turned out alright. Watched tv for the whole afternoon. Funny thing is normally i have lots to blog once i start blogging but today, my mind is a blank.
Went to watch happy feet yst, with jess, song, mak and sin. Started the day by playing pool at WCRC in the afternoon with song and jess. Played for awhile and then went to wheelock place cause jess wanted to go do nydc for interview but too bad she cant work there cause thier looking for someone who can work for a minimum of 6 mths. While walking my crave for food hit me and i asked if they wanted to eat sakae sushi haha. Its been a while since i have eaten sakae, esp the buffet. Well we all ate till the food was up to our necks and we were basically forcing ourself to eat jus to clear the food on our table. haha. It was a rather funny situation, song was complaining about his hang over from drinking with his boss and his so called "suger mummy" haha that jess named for him. Well that another story so i'll continue with mine. And jess was complaining that when ever she goes out with us she'll gain 5 kg haha. Thats the price to pay when u come out with us lolz cause we will entertain you. After eating we decided to head to paragon and look for sin. Kept making fun of jess cause paragon is a so called "rich's man place." Me and song did not even know which shop was where but jess walked around like it was her backyard haha. Well found out later tat sin was working at the bra section of metro and we walked over to look for her. To cut a long story short we met her after her work and went to take a bus over to plaza sing to meet up with sharon and watch happy feet. Song was so blur tat when sharon came up from the escalator he did not see her and was leaning against the rail trying to spot her. haha. Brought tics for 6:30 show and it was the 5th row from the front. My neck was hurting after the movie but it was worth it haha. The movie is damn cute esp those baby penguins. haha. So fat and chubby. I jus love the way they talk and walk. There was one rapping penguin haha and there was a group of 5 pengiuns which were so hyper haha. They are all jus so cute. Well after that we went for a short game of pool again and we all headed back to take the MRT. Me, song and jess went to to take the train home while both sharon went to mac to wait for zkent. In the train we were pack like sardine for one stop. Thank goodness its only one stop haha. The rest of the train rides were alright as we got to sit down for a while. Jess got scolded by her mum for going home late, so much for the good girl image lolz. Speaking of mums, my mum is so strange lately. She has been smsing me asking where i am and what time i am coming back as early as 10. and its getting real irritating. Even though i said i am coming home now she'll ask again where am i and when i am coming back. Its not as if i was in pri school or something. Well, i guess the post is rather long now so i'll stop here. Gotta prepare my stuff for the camp tml.

Last night was my ex class the prom night, wished i was there with them man. They made it sound so fun. Well met up with cheng, song, fei, mark, teo, joseph, zc, alina, jess, ken and wendy at lao pat sat. Ate and chit chat there. I am glad they had plans, was feeling so fustrated at home and did not wanna stay in my room. After eating we crapped around thinking aobut where to go. Ended up walking to esplanade where the merlion was and sat there till 6 in the mornin before cabbing home. While we were there, we talked about our childhood, all the shows we use to watch, tome and jerry, swat cats, teletubbies(yes we do watch it during our childhood), and the most common power rangers. haha. yea childhood was fun. everyone was so lartagic that night. guess its cause of the cooling atmosphere there that made everyone just wanna sit there and enjoy the breeze and think about the past few years. I went to sit on the steps near the merlion and i was only a few steps away from the river. Sitting there made me think of the past few years, how i got to know them till i left the school. Kinda regreted it actually. Wasted alot of my time in there. did not treasure the time i had in there too. My good buddies and sisters from the class. Dont think we would meet up that often anymore. Eventhough many in my class would say our class has lots of conflicts, well its true but i believe every single one of them that has been together from 2001 to 2006 will agree with this, all of us will be remembered in everyone's mind and heart. Those crappy times we spent during PE lessons in sec 1, the times when we ran up and down changing from our Uniform to our PE attire. To those times in adam khoo where we all kinda bonded as one. Those were the times. Well to everyone in 5/1, wish u guys good luck in the future. And remember, We'll always be the best team in commonwealth.