Life as it is now...

Life as it is now...

Life for me now seems so meaningless, like i am drifting around looking for a meaning in my life. Sleeping time has been so weird for me, sleeping now and then in the day but awake for the whole night. Listening to a song atm, there is a line which says, "Dreams are meant for sleeping, and wishes on a star just don't come true." This line is so true, i have lots of stuffs that i hoped happened. But well, dreams are meant for sleeping, and stuffs you wish that happened always do not happen.

Well, to be honest. There is someone in my mind right now. Hopefully those who read my blog are people i can trust and wont go around gossiping or asking me who it is. I wont say it out, now that out of the way. She seems so distant but i do have some good feelings for that particular person. But i doubt i am a person whom she'll accept. Having lots of friends around her, having others who care for her, I'll just be passive and not do anything stupid which may jeopardize the friendship i have with her.

Who would like a person like me anyways? Neither successful in my life, neither good looking. All i have is a N level certificate. Thinking back, i really screwed up my life. Theres no way i can turn back time now, so i am taking things as i go by. Hopefully i will receive my letter for National Service, at least at a place away from my usual hangouts. I may forget stuffs i should forget. If i do not receive the letter by next year, i have decided. I will continue my studies. Which? I still do not know, i have 2 plans in mind. One will be to go back to shatec and study. The other will be to go take private Os, and get into Lassale. Hopefully able to make music as my career. Sounds like a dream right? Well, i can dream cant i? Maybe these will all come true, maybe not. Who knows what the future holds?